2nd Place is the Winner

it was hard, and it was fast, nothing stopped us from continue, i could not help it, i beat him once, i was pride but god damn it, there was nothing special. it was stupid competition.

i remember when we all got prepared, for that exam and we were internally talking about it, inside of us not with others, thinking that we have to pass, well i was thinking that i have to be 1st, and i had to win and moreover cross over him and make him 2nd.

now i cannot do it again, i received nothing, i lost my motivation and what for!? i always find excuses to forget my friends and be too far, no social and blame the rest when i lose my essentials, and lonely took me over.

so what the matters are? the winner take them all, and the loser wine and talk and talk, i believe when the 2nd time in my life i found the competition, i found myself experienced the 1st moment, so i left and he won, and he took them all, what an easy course he will run through and what an unexpected one i will run through.

i returned back, i found that i have other arenas to win, some of them complex and others are easy, and i found it is not about winning, it is about being involved, involved in a healthy way that i can help and make a change.

the problem is that you need to win, for confidence, and you need competition, you need to be narrowed and be afraid, think and imagine to be a good winner, the 2nd time i lost, i found i am enriched, where every body was around not like the last time where everyone was not beside or even worse behind.